I am lost. I don't know how to get out of this. I'm trapped in my head and I can't fucking get out. He left me to cry myself out for two hours. He's not ... here. Not for me. Not my safe place. Don't really think he wants to be. My tears seem to do nothing but piss him off. I feel so damn alone right now. And I don't know how to do that. Not right now. I'm in pieces. This is not a blog about DD right now. It's nothing more than me falling apart.
And there's just not enough alcohol for this. But one more comin' up .... drink that is.